Fraud

I am learning that with every new level of opportunity, or for lack of a better word, “success”, comes a brand new level of stress. Former Saturday Night Live writer John Mulaney said that on his first day at SNL, another writer asked, “Do you feel like a fraud?”

“Yes.”

“Don’t worry, we all do.”

That's how I always seem to feel when a new opportunity is given. I have worked really, really hard to get to the next level in my career, yet every time I get there I stop myself and over think the situation. In doing magic tricks my whole life, I have spent much of my time day dreaming about the next level. But dreaming and doing are two different things. Fantasy is always easier than reality.

My wife and I start our first week of shows this Monday at The House of Magic in Macau.

(Designed, curated and hosted by world-acclaimed illusionist Franz Harary, 'The House of Magic' is the world's first multi-theater, immersive visitor magic experiences, designed for magicians by a master magician and featuring live magicians and set in a mystical three-theater showcase complex of amazing, mind-bending magic. Read More Here or visit The House of Magic Website)

The past week has been spent getting ourselves acquainted with the lay of the land, adjusting to living in the future by 16 hours, and navigating the lack of vegetarian options. We had our tech rehearsal Thursday, and ran a dress rehearsal yesterday. All of which went fine, but it’s difficult to get out of your head when surrounded by such talented performers.

I am a firm believer that in order to get better, you need to surround yourself with people (professionally and personally) who are better than you. It makes you work harder and doesn't allow for complacency. Working at this venue for three months will certainly do just that. I am performing along side some of the best magicians in the world, and that's no exaggeration.

Week one of thirteen in Macau has been a wonderful experience thus far. We are going to just keep doing our best, and hope everything works out.

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